Learning To Say Goodbye

Learning To Say Goodbye

I have been using

this meditative Holistic breathing technique

the past few weeks.

Its purpose is to help you release

old memories and feelings

that aren't supporting your highest good.

I've noticed changes

during the meditation and afterward.

Suddenly having the urge

to tell some childhood stories

to my loving wife

about stuff she never knew.

As I meditated on that notion tonight,

the realization came that I had chosen

to block chunks of memory

from childhood and adulthood.

I believe some of the blocks

were from unresolved grief.

Many memories surrounding

the burying of my son.

A common thread has run through my life.

It started with the very first loss, my dog.

I never got to say goodbye

at the end while she was still alive.

Then over the years

my dad, my son, my mom, and my first wife,

all the significant losses in my life

all without an opportunity to say a final goodbye.

The introduction for this meditation

prepares you

to feel the release of old issues,

then to open more

Spiritually, creatively, etc.

As you listen and participate

time after time,

it builds on these points.

Near the end

of the sixth listen tonight

I felt a closeness

and started to write by writing:

"Learning to say goodbye."

Then I mentally asked

if my first wife was there

she said I am

and we shared loving a phrase

we had always used.

I asked if my son was there

and he said yes, told me he loved me.

We shared a tender loving moment

on the eve of my birthday.

 I went on to write this,

for the three of us.

Learning to say goodbye,

without saying goodbye.

Learning to live life

as the goodbye.

So it will be

so very well known

when it is time

for the real goodbye.

Expressing love,

being love,

so you don't even

have to use

the word, Love.

For it is known

without even being said. 

Learning to say goodbye.

Without saying goodbye.

Is that my mission

this incarnation

to explore my emotional reaction

to these seemingly silent losses?

To understand we are Spiritual beings

having a human experience.

Each birth

another great adventure unleashed

and each human death

a joyous reunion

of going back home

from whence we came

yet again.

If it is, this meditation

is moving me

in the right direction

of that, I am so very sure.

There are gifts hidden in this meditation.

There are gifts hidden

in things you thought you had dealt with

but hadn't.

There were gifts given

and received in his visit.

Thank you son,

for the birthday present

last night.

Goodbye Philip

I love you, I always will.

  

 All  My Love Always, Keith