Choice

 

Choice 01.13.21

 

Grateful and Thankful

I chose to read

this blog post

this morning.

https://youarelovenow.com/2021/01/13/a-choice-of-love-2/

I responded to it

with this:

 

The ability

to make a choice

is such a gift.

Sitting in awareness

and leaving that option

of choice open

is allowing yourself

the Grace To Be.

 

Do I allow myself

to be dragged

into negative thinking

by the ego,

or do I allow myself

to view all things

through the eyes

of the love I am,

that we all are.

 

During

the most trying moments

when my son

was in the ICU

after emergency brain surgery,

I was consumed

by all sorts of

negative thoughts.

I asked myself why?

I meditate all the time;

why isn't it helping

now?

 

At that moment,

I chose to seek

that stillness

I was so familiar with.

What came

immediately was this:

"Breath in Love, Exhale Peace."

It brought me home

to my center,

where Love resides.

It calmed

my monkey mind then.

It sustained me

for all the ensuing

difficult times

of his two year battle

with brain cancer.

 

And now,

as his first Angelversary

approaches,

it comes up

as a choice to make

yet again.

Again I lean on the mantra

that came

from the stillness

that day in the ICU.

I am continuing

to choose

to anchor myself

in it:

Breath in Love, Exhale Peace.

It always leads me

back to the Love

that birthed us all.

 All My Love always, Keith

Connection 01.09.21

                                                                          

Connection

01.09.21

I read a blog from a friend

called Love's Eternal Light today.

My heart was feeling very heavy.

Next week's impending

first Angelversary of my son

was hitting me very intensely.

So I did as I often do,

I took a hike.

It always seems to bring me back

to my loving center.

 

I was breathing in the winter's air

in the peaceful silence of the woods.

Allowing myself to go where I felt led.

So as I got to a split in the trail,

I followed my intuition

"this way!"

As I strolled along,

I noticed a Robin.

Jason's robins were with me!

That is a sign I have had

since his transition.

And not just one this day,

a flock of them.

I felt connected to him

in those first moments

of seeing them.

 

I saw my whole hike

unfold in my mind.

So I looped down to the main trail.

I crossed the bridge

(that has its own story of connection).

I now call it Jason's rainbow bridge.

Just after that,

another flock of robins.

A smile crosses my face

and lifts my heart higher.

 

As I head back,

I know I'm going to go off

the main path again and

back into the deep woods.

As I climb a ridge,

I notice Robins as I look up.

They always seem to be flying off

away from me farther down the trail.

Time after time,

when I look up,

I see this.

My heart becomes so light

with this loving sense.

This sense

that I'm hiking again with my son

as we so often did on visits.

 

Then I'm beaming

with the realization

that Jason knows

where I am going next!

He's guiding the Robins

to the path in front of me!

The flock is continually

flitting off before me

as I look up.

It fills my awareness,

time after time, when I look up.

Robins are everywhere before me.

 

This awareness gifts me;

it's washed the heaviness

from my heart.

It has left me with a confirmation

once again, that love never dies!

 

Thanks for hiking with me, Jason,

you made this dreary

cold winter's day

filled with the heaviness

of grief so much brighter.

Your love fills my heart

to overflowing.

My tear-filled eyes

again look up now

to see the title to

Sandy's blog message today.

"Love's Eternal Light"

thank you

for continuing

to shine it on me,

Dear Jason.

 

Love you, Dad.

 

My dear friend, Sandy,

posts daily messages.

You can read the one

my post refers to here.

 https://youarelovenow.com/2021/01/09/loves-eternal-light/

All My Love Always, Keith

Be The Light

Be The Light

Facebook brought me this

from their Share A Memory feature.

It is from December 3rd, 2015.

I thought all I was sharing

was the quote and image.

Since all that was all that displayed

in the Share A Memory box.

I was pleasantly surprised

by what I wrote back then.

It comes as a reminder

that it just may be more relevant

in these times of social distancing

and quarantines than it was then.

Here it is:

 

I sat with and an excellent read the other day.

Then during a discussion,

I was told to do nearly the same thing.

Spirit is always sending us messages.

If we but still ourselves enough

to recognize its presence.

You may be thinking now:

How am I to be the light?

Well, what resonated with me

from that book was this statement.

When you want to connect to Source,

whatever your name for it is.

Imagine a column of light

from your heart to Source.

I envision this beautiful

golden glowing umbilical cord

soaring into the heavens.

There it connects to the Source

of the infinite,

the unconditional love of the universe.

To the infinite, unconditional love

of All That Is.

The other thing?

Envision yourself standing there

with whoever you want to help.

Hold this vision

of both of your souls

standing there in front of you.

Holding hands with one another

face to face.

Envision this golden beam of love energy

moving energetically

back and forth between your souls.

Communicating whatever

it is you want to.

Be it healing, love,

or just to support them on a soul level.

I did that sitting

in church last Sunday.

I knew of two people

who required healing energy.

I sat there and held the connection

to infinite unconditional love.

I saw this golden heart sized

umbilical cord of divine connection

going from my heart to the heavens.

I also saw two streams

of that golden energy

connecting to my friends.

Joining them at their heart level.

Beaming in compassion,

love, and healing power.

It was like a visual

silent prayer for them.

Try being the light.

I know you'll love this new way

to pray for others.

 

All My Love Always, Keith

A Thanksgiving Gift

A Thanksgiving Gift

 

A dear friend Sandy,

shares daily messages she gets during meditation

through automatic writing from her team.

https://youarelovenow.com/2020/11/29/who-you-are-2/

Today the message "Who You Are"

prompted me to share this reply I made

to her and her team with all of you.

 

"You are always aligned with love.

Your human perceptions may beg to differ..."

I had a shift in perceptions on Thanksgiving eve.

With all the covid concerns,

we kept scaling back plans.

Laura cooked pumpkin pies.

We decided to deliver them

to my son and daughter's family's that evening.

 

As we drove to my daughter's family's house,

I began to think of Jane E.,

the wife I lost 10 years ago,

just over two months before Thanksgiving that year.

As I sunk into a funk about it,

I thought how sad it was

to not be with us,

to not experience her grandchildren.

 

My thought was,

"How many have you missed now?"

Instantly, this awareness arose

as she responded emphatically with,

"Not a one!"

 

At that moment,

I knew it was her

with a special Thanksgiving gift this year.

Reminding me,

"you are always aligned with love!"

 

All My Love Always, Keith

 

Ten

Ten

Jane E. September 16, 2020,

hard to believe this is your tenth Angelversary.

I think back to the song

I was led to in the early days,

“To Where You Are” by Josh Groban.

So many times, I would listen to that one.

“Fly me up to where you are

beyond the distant star

I wish upon tonight to see you smile.”

I sat there early yesterday morning,

sipping coffee and thinking of you.

Remembering this day

from ten years ago

and all the other days we had,

I went looking to be led again.

This time to quotes, I found these:

“I believe that tears can heal,

that memories can comfort,

and Love lives on forever.”

I kept digging and was led to this one too

by Joanne Fink:

“Those who once touched your life in love

will live in your heart forever.”

 

I started my day.

Off to the dentist for a cleaning

and rushing back to be home

when my friend Duane

was to work on our air conditioner.

I called him as I left the dentist,

and he was already on the way.

 I got home and cleared away the access

to the malfunctioning air conditioner.

Then I wandered into the front yard

to wait for Duane to show up.

There in the early morning sun

was the hibiscus my daughter Erin gave us.

We planted two of them

a couple of years ago.

Jane E. you brought

hibiscus from New York.

You lovingly took a piece

of the same hibiscus

to grow in every place we lived in.

Erin has kept up that tradition

and gave Alex and me

some for our yards.

I remember lamenting to Erin

just weeks ago

how ours were not fairing that well

with all the summer heat

and weeks of dry weather.

So as I wandered

up the hill,

I noticed the pink blooms

on the hibiscus.

I saw how many there were.

Fifteen blooms.

How the bees were delighted

to find so much pollen to harvest.

I moved in to photograph the scene

to catch the bees at work.

I angled for another picture

and waited for a more precise shot.

Just as I took it, the bee lifted off.

 As I went to review the photos I took

to my amazement, there was the bee.

Covered in pollen hanging in the air!

 

Yes, Jane E. “To Where You Are”

seeing through the eyes of love,

always around if we can only still

our humanness long enough

to become aware of your

everlasting presence in our lives.

You brought a big smile

to my face yesterday.

And yes, I believe you flew me up

to where you are to see you smile

so you could see my smile in return.

Another verse from that song comes to mind:

“and isn’t faith believing

All power can’t be seen.”

And as I end this yes,

I believe in the unseen power of love,

I believe that tears can heal,

that memories can comfort,

and love lives on forever.

I believe

those who once touched your life in love

will live on in your heart forever.

The song ends with this:

“I know you’re there

a breath away’s

not far to where you are.”

All My Love Always, Keith