Doubts 07.01.15

Doubts

07.01.15

Doubts I have had many.

Still do.

I've mentioned before

how many spiritual events happened so fast,

that I had ongoing weekly discussions
with my dear Hospice counselor.

Asking her point blank if I was going crazy.

She told me I was not and related occurrences

from her many years of counseling that were similar to mine.

Sharing mine in my grief group and hearing similar stories in return.
Hearing these echoed from a psychologist I saw too.

That led me on a spiritual quest to dig into these events

and try to sort them out with my logical left brain.

My collegiate training as an engineer had left me
ever so doubtful of spiritual matters.
Those that are so very hard to prove,

yet are weaved within the fabric of our human history everywhere.

Having been devastated by a stillborn child in the late 80’s further

shut me off from exploring my spirituality.

Then a rapid succession of very spiritual occurrences

led me to reopen my closed mindedness.

So I poured myself into reading:

Concetta Bertoldi, Dr. Wayne W. Dyer, Deepak Chopra, Dr. David R. Hawkins,

Eckhart Tolle, Alan Watts, Bruce H. Lipton Phd., Lee Pulos PhD., Rumi, Kahlil Gibran,

Eben Alexander, M.D., Michael A. Singer, Ken Keys Jr., Dr. Masaru Emoto.

That first book I hesitated to even take home with me. 

Given as a gift from a man who had also lost his wife

he talked of Mediums and contact with the “other side.”

I remember thinking “he’s way out there!”

From that book I took away:

Keep an Open Mind.

Watch For Signs.

There Are No Coincidences.

Sometimes now I find myself somewhat hesitant to share

realizing I could full well be labeled “way out there.”

So if something I write strikes you that way

don’t just brush me off.

That’s what I did for decades.

One quack or one person using people’s grief led me

to write off everything: paranormal or spiritual or that “just can’t be!”

Dig into it with a sense of wonder like I have and find out what your truth is.

My view of reality has changed drastically in the past five years.

Read books and explore it when you feel “this can’t be!”

Dig into your truth and question it.

All I know is I feel I’ve learned an awful lot these last few years.

Expanded my views of what’s possible

and know that I have barely scratched the surface.

I sure have enjoyed the ride though!

All My Love Always, Keith

Doubt is the incentive to truth and inquiry leads the way.

Hosea Ballou